We Are Called to Rise Above Human Nature, Not Give In to It – A Police Wife’s Perspective

Demonstrators stand around a fire during a protest near the White House in response to the killing of George Floyd May 31, 2020 in Washington, DC.

Rioters Set Fire To Home With Child Inside, Then Block Firefighters’ Access; Emotional Police Chief Details Incident



My Police Officer husband came home in the middle of the other night, after 20 HOURS of being on the job.  Yes… twenty… hours of constant stress and fight or flight chemicals in his body.

Mentally and physically exhausted is a massive understatement, even though they deal with it and carry on.

He then got a little less than 4 hours of sleep, and had to return to go right back in.  He deals with it so well you wouldn’t be able to tell unless you knew him, but of course I still pray and am concerned in times like these if he’s getting enough sleep to even drive safe.

He’s not alone.  There were many officers from the night before who had done the exact same thing.  The city he works in is going on five nights of riots, and there’s no certainty as to when they’ll finally stop.  More are scheduled throughout the weekend.

It’s my job, as a police wife, to make sure our kids and home-life are still functioning ok, even though his job has just become what feels like a million times more dangerous.  Already so many officers (132 in Chicago alone!) have been assaulted, plowed over with vehicles, dragged by mobs, shot and even murdered.

The outpouring of utter hatred and violence, was to many of them surreal, but they faced it anyway.

A real-life picture taken by one of my husband’s friends shows them kneeling to GOD in prayer before facing more violence.


This is a fight against evil.

And they asked God to help them stand courageously against it.


The kind of evil that is harming innocent people just because they’re white.  Or trapping children inside burning houses so that they’ll die.

That is what evil looks like. And it tried very hard to overwhelm several cities this weekend.


We had so many ordinary citizens say they felt moved in their spirits to go down there, to meet the violence and stand against it.  To stand with our officers to protect our city.  Something that’s never happened before.

And in an act that I consider miraculous, many DID show up, even though our city government told them to stay home.  Normal citizens showed up, armed to the teeth (!!!), to help defend our historic sites and officers. And that along with God’s protection I believe is why NONE of our officers were critically injured.

A few were definitely injured.

But no one lost their life.

A few of our officers after the riots died down… after 12+ hours of being “on”… after being depleted from a war inside our city

If you don’t understand how much of this was actually a war, going on inside many cities this past weekend, I can’t help you.  And none of this was for the death of George Floyd, who 99% of officers believe was wrong and evil itself.

This was about evil overtaking our cities, overwhelming our police who are having to become more and more militaristic in their approach to subdue this kind of war on humanity.  The media, many times in these last 5 nights of rioting, have consistently downplayed the violence from the rioters, and only show the public videos of our officers responding (in order to make them look as though they aren’t being attacked by  fireworks and glass bottles, the media has been completely leaving those attacks out here).  But many citizens at least where my husband works, have friends on the force and are getting the real information, or filming it themselves and spreading the news of how bad the violence is – like a war zone.


Rise Above Human Nature

Let me encourage any of you reading this, that yes, this looks bleak.  I understand this bleakness, from both the evil that was when those officers killed George Floyd using utterly wrong tactics after he was cuffed, as well as the evil that has been satanically unleashed into our country like a flood.  I could not escape that feeling of bleakness even if I wanted to, many wives have let it be known they are drowning right now – drowning in depression and bleakness, unable to function.  Of course my family is thrown into the middle of this war because of our Patriarch being one of the men who defends our city against this kind of evil.  If I’ve been quiet for a couple of weeks during all of this, it’s because I’m trying to cocoon our children while supporting my  husband working days like his 20 hour or 15 hour days.

According to this article, even with four officers being shot, countless assaulted along with firefighters, the prosecutors released them without any charges.  Evil is really winning here at that level, and being cheered on by a blind church who thinks this is somehow acceptable because of Floyd’s death.

But we are not overwhelmed.

What I saw a few nights ago, normal every-day Texans coming to the aid of men like my husband, voluntarily putting themselves in danger to help protect them and our inner city with their own firearms, I saw the passion of American people who still believe in goodness, God, and to rise above.

I felt hope.  Hope that it’s no longer an us versus them where they get to sit comfortably from their couches as they watch their own city burn down.  Hope that when people get to choose, they’ll help our men and women uphold some semblance of civility and law.  Hope that there are other men out there willing to fight for goodness, and to shame and put evil back into it’s corner.  When the rioters saw guns, they ran the other way like the cowards they are!

Many of us wives are praying Psalm 18 over our husbands, which is just so powerful in light of this spiritual battle my husband and his force is facing right now.

My husband is the most noble man I know.  In fact, his name’s meaning literally is, “Noble Man,” and he more than lives up to it, he and so many others of them, do not deserve all this hatred, violence, and evil attacking them daily for almost a week now.

For Your Officer Husband Against this Spiritual Battle

“He reached down from on high and took hold of me;

He pulled me out of deep waters.

He rescued me from my powerful enemy and from those who hated me, for they were too strong for me.

They confronted me in the day of my distress, but the LORD was my support.

He brought me out to a wide-open place; He rescued me because He delighted in me.

The LORD rewarded me according to my righteousness; He repaid me according to the cleanness of my hands.

For I have kept the ways of the LORD and have not turned from my God to wickedness.

Indeed, I have kept all His ordinances in mind and have not disregarded His statutes.

I was blameless toward Him and kept myself from sinning. So the LORD repaid me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in HIS sight!

With the faithful You proved Yourself faithful; with the blameless man You prove Yourself blameless;

With the pure You prove Yourself pure, but with the crooked You prove Yourself shrewd.

For You rescue an afflicted people, but You humble those who with haughty eyes.

LORD, You light my lamp; my God illuminates my darkness. With You I can attack a barrier, and with my God I can leap over a wall. God-

His way is perfect; the word of the LORD is pure. He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him. For who is God besides the LORD? And who is a rock? Only our God.

God- He clothes me with strength and makes my way perfect.

He makes my feet like the feet of a deer and sets me securely on the heights.

He trains my hands for war; my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

You have given me the shield of Your salvation;

Your right hand upholds me, and Your humility exalts me.

You widen a place beneath me for my steps, and my ankles do not give way.

You have clothed me with STRENGTH for BATTLE;

You subdue my enemies before me.

You have made my enemies retreat before me;

You have freed me from the feuds among the people; You have anointed me the head of nations; a people I do not know serve me.

Foreigners submit to me grudgingly; as soon as they hear, they have to obey me.

Foreigners lose heart and come trembling from their fortifications.

The LORD surely lives – may my Rock be praised!  The God of my salvation is exalted.

God – He gives me vengeance and subdues peoples under me.

He frees me from my enemies.  You exalt me above my adversaries;

You rescue me from violent men.

Therefore I will praise You, LORD, among all the nations;

I will sing about Your Name.

God gives great victories to His king; He shows loyalty to His anointed, to David and his descendants forever.'”

An older wife strongly urged some of us to get off our butts and start encouraging others because we ourselves have been uplifted.  Six years ago, I would not have handled this well, and I didn’t mentally/emotionally back when the riots began for the first time in my millennial perspective, in 2014.

I’ve had emails over the years from young police wives who are just beginning their journey into this life, and are looking for answers… I’ll try to write a small series on some of those topics, bear in mind it’s not for everyone.  I expect most would never understand the role and place of what you’re doing as a police wife, and you can’t demand they do.  But I promise I will write for you.  It’s not right that I’ve had older wives invest in me, pull through the darkness of despair, and that I not turn around and do something, even something small, for younger wives who are like a deer caught in the headlights with all of this.

Thank you for reading





  1. We’ve been thinking about you guys. Hoping all is well considering the circumstances… Great post. As always

  2. I have been praying for your husband every night since this started. My family has a lot of friends in the police and military, and these events are terrifying and disturbing.

  3. Dropped in from MMM.Thank you for a beautiful and informative article.Will be standing in agreement with Ps 18 ,Ps 91 for police officers And their families. God bless you and thank you for your service. May we never take it for granted.

  4. Keeping your husband, all of his colleagues, and their families in my prayers.

    I began working again in the ICU during the pandemic and recently cared for an injured officer in my city due to riots. It’s such senseless and absolutely unnecessary violence. Luckily, he does not have life threatening injuries and is expected to make a full recovery barring no complications.

    Honestly, I am a bit hesitant posting a comment here after your comments to me at Sharkly’s blog. I can’t imagine what’s it’s like being a police officer’s wife during this time, especially with a newborn.

  5. Praying that your husband stays safe.
    Here in New Zealand it’s easy to forget about what’s going on over there (even though it’s all over the news) and I’ve been taking my safety, and the safety of my family, for granted.
    May God bring you peace and comfort during these scary times.

  6. The neck restraint was more dangerous to the suspect than others but during the struggle, the officer used it since it came to hand. The autopsy showed that the neck restraint did NOT damage Floyd’s spine, spinal cord, throat or blood vessels in the throat. Floyd was yelling, a lot, indicating that he was breathing just fine except for the well-known Fentanyl sydrome of “an elephant sitting on my chest”. Floyd found out that, as a 46 year old, he was too old to be playing the street drug game. Methamphetamine plus Fentanyl and a heart attack. What a surprise!

    It is looking as if the .violence and looting are part of a political scheme rather than a reaction to one more urban drug overdose. Hang in and stay safe.

  7. @Mike-SMO there is a coordinated and very passionate effort to completely abolish police presence. That, and then with how they’ve released 1,000’s of criminals from prisons/jails across America, and not just during the pandemic, but over several years, in general, the trend has been to dramatically decrease how many prisoners they keep. Releasing that many people who are supposed to be in jail for violent crimes (nevermind how California got around this by redefining what are technical violent crimes), of course the rioting is going to get worse and worse as the years go on and more and more criminals are released into society. Or arrested but they released the next day.

    It is undoubtedly very coordinated and thought-through by someone who understands how to overwhelm the system with violent rioters and looters (who used to be, and should still be, in jail) all the while claiming that too many blacks are already in jail, that it’s the, “new,” kind of slavery with the “white,” police officers being the KKK (nevermind most police in our city are actually not white at all LOL it is amazing how dumb someone has to be to believe this is about white supremacy).

    There’s a documentary out there right now, trying to train people to believe that all those blacks putting themselves in prison were only put there because of white supremacy. That they aren’t bad because of their violent crimes or choice to use drugs, that they’re in jail/prison because of whites. Hence why they are tring to get the populace to believe that police are the problem, not criminals. That we need an END to all police. Not an end to crime.

    Crime. Rioting. Looting. All this is their free expression of pain and anger at a system that has been keeping them enslaved in prisons and jails, keeping them oppressed. That’s the narrative that will be pushed in teh coming years, with each time getting more violent and longer periods of looting, police deaths and collapse of civilization.

  8. I don’t see the need, once he’s in cuffs (And they can put those on the feet, connecting those to the hands if need be, or put him in the car.), to stay on his neck. And how many minutes? And even when his pulse stopped. No. There was absolutely no need for that. There was something else going on between the two, as we consider.

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